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Stewart Lozensky Interview
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My first call to ministry was when I was about 18 years old. I was called to canvass—sell Bible books. I grew up with a severe stutter and my family said, what are you thinking, trying to go and sell books when you can’t even talk? God blessed me, and in time, I became the publishing secretary of our conference. Part of my responsibility as publishing secretary was to preach every couple of weeks in churches around the conference. There started my desire or call to pastoral ministry. I had canvassed for 10 years and now I felt God calling me in a new direction.
 
I took a short break to attend college and while there the conference asked me to preach at a local church on a temporary basis. The church asked the conference “Why can’t we just call Stewart to be our pastor?” So that is how I began my pastoral ministry, just two quarters into my college education.
 
I had learned it wasn’t about being capable. It was about simply being willing—trying to be faithful. My family knew my faith came first. When the call came to pastor, they were proud. They had seen how God had blessed me in my canvassing and as conference secretary, and they trusted my calling to the pastoral ministry.
 
There were challenges. Stuttering being one of them. As a kid I can recall being picked on and teased a lot about my stuttering. My teacher didn’t understand and on the first day of school she called on each student to stand up and say our names. I can remember heat coming up in me—my ears on fire, as if they were, smoking—as it got closer and closer to my turn. I stood up and I said, “I’m St-St-St-St—and I couldn’t even say Stewart. The kids all laughed— it wasn't a good place to be.
 
Then I recall my first canvass. The publishing director was with me, and as I looked at the lady through the screen door, I couldn’t say a word. I just got stuck so bad I couldn’t say a anything! She looked at me like, what kind of a planet are you from, and slammed the door! I thought, wow, WOW! The person who was training me said, “I would like to share a text with you,” and he showed me in Scripture where Paul said, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” That became my text. Every time I would try to talk, and couldn’t, I would think, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
 
Stuttering has also challenged me as a pastor. I have served in about twelve different churches now and I’ve had very kind and supportive congregations. They say that my ministry is a blessing to them. Still at times I wondered like when I was asked to pray and I couldn’t say Amen. I went A-a-a-a-a-a for the longest time, but could not get it out! Finally I just said, “The church said….” and all of the people said it with me, so then I could finally say it.
 
Another time a couple asked me to do their wedding. I thought, “How will that work? What if I can’t even say their names?” But God blessed, and the wedding turned out well. It shows me that people generally don’t care about my stuttering as much as maybe I do. They’re okay with it.
 
I have times when I am just about completely fluent—I get my breathing right to control the stuttering. Then there are times when all the breathing that I try, all the things I’ve been taught, just doesn’t work. I think it is more of a struggle when I am tired. I do wrestle with God about it. One time, I was at a camp meeting in the Dakotas, and one of the speakers, H.M.S. Richards Jr., shared that when God called him to be a pastor, he stuttered. Pastor Richards told God, “If you will help me with this stutter, I’ll be a preacher”—and God took it from him.
 
On the way out of the gym, people asked me, “Didn’t that encourage you?” Well, no, it didn’t encourage me, and I went to our camper and I wept on the floor and said, “Why, Lord, why, why? You did it for this man. Why won’t you do it for me?” And clear as a bell God’s voice spoke to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, my strength is made perfect in weakness. Don’t ask again.” So now I just ask that if He chooses to make me fluent that I’ll be fluent. If He wants me to stutter I’ll stutter. I just want to glorify Him.
 
Every time I stand at the pulpit, I bow down prior to preaching, because I know I can’t do it—I cannot represent my Creator without His blessing. There’s nothing like knowing that I’m serving the all-powerful God, the Creator of everything, and He’s chosen me to represent Him. It’s amazing to me—absolutely amazing. Even though I’m fragile, even though I break at times, even though my flesh is human, I am a partaker of the Divine. It does humble me.
 
I am so amazed at how patient my heavenly Father is with me. The struggles I go through, the things that I even bring upon myself by the choices I make, doesn’t stop Him from calling me son and He keeps calling me back, and picking me back up when I fall.
 
My greatest joy in ministry is soul-winning—sharing this good news with others. The second is the children, the young children in my church and church school. I just love being a part in shaping them to follow Christ as their Savior. I feel like God is calling our churches to grow in Christ, and that maybe I can help people to grow in Christ. Sabbath and all of those doctrines are great, but apart from Christ they are nothing. The Sabbath should bring us to Christ. The state of the dead should bring us to Christ. Everything should draw us to Christ. If I could help people in the churches to grow closer to Christ, we could then serve Him as a team to win souls! That’s what God instilled in me, that that’s what His call is for me.
 
The first churches that I pastored were shell-shocking to me—to find out that not everybody in the church really cared about those who were not saved. They talked about it, they said they cared, but when it came to actually doing something they had excuses. “Oh, no, I can’t do anything, I’m too busy, “ or “I don’t have any talent,” or any excuse to keep them from doing soul-winning. If we as a church were truly on fire for Christ, Jesus could come sooner.
 
The years tick by, the years tick by, and I’ve been serving Christ for a long, long time. I’m anxious for Him to come. Jesus came to seek and to save that which was lost. What a thrill to be a part of that!
 
 
 
Stewart Lozensky - Short Interview
 
 

Stewart Lozensky - Full Interview